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10 years ago
Understanding my heartMy heart ache and all I could dew is pray and ask GOD for understanding and peace. When I was finished scriptures came to mind. The first one I was lead to searching for the second one. I've been answered through HIS Word(James 1:5,6). In my past I did so much according to the flesh; young thought I had it all figured out w/ no doubt I was on that flesh route("thinking to myself, times got hard I had to play the cards even though I was playing w/ hearts"). Assuming I know women because, of my mother, older sister, older 1st cousins and aunties. The first layer of women not all layers, it wasn't. When I was very young I can remember that my father was first to introduce me to that five letter word cheat. I don't say this to dishonor my father's memory, all who knew say that, "Blue was a good man." Now I can hear my Uncle Jimmy telling me, "You father just loved women!" As I became older I notice I did too, all different types but, I was "Skoney" like my Uncle Lynn because of my height. Despite my vice this blog is to shed light in my life to make things right in GOD'S sight. Now the five letter word has caught up w/ me in my life time from multiple relationships. Being married, divorced, mistreated, cheated, believing, deciding. In theses things I'm reaping, sometime my spirit becomes vexed but, never-the-less I press through the mess created by my flesh(Gal.6:5-8;Ecc.1:16,17)knowing these trials benefit; spiritual test(Heb.12:3-11). Now later in my life GOD'S truth has been revealed, my sinful desires I strive not to spill focused on yield to HIS will and earnestly waiting to be HOLY GHOST filled. Everyday it's a struggle trying to reach the mark, daily I need my soul fed, sometimes it's tart, unleavened bread the only way to heaven. Instead of my stomach ingested in my heart! "dewsmoove" Look deep in your heart! Jeremiah 13:22-23 KJVAnd if thou say in thine heart, Wherefore come these things upon me? For the greatness of thine iniquity are thy skirts discovered, and thy heels made bare. Can the Ethiopian change his skin, or the leopard his spots? then may ye also do good, that are accustomed to do evil.Jeremiah 17:9-10 KJVThe heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it? I the Lord search the heart, I try the reins, even to give every man according to his ways, and according to the fruit of his doings.Mark 7:20-23 KJVAnd he said, That which cometh out of the man, that defileth the man. For from within, out of the heart of men, proceed evil thoughts, adulteries, fornications, murders, Thefts, covetousness, wickedness, deceit, lasciviousness, an evil eye, blasphemy, pride, foolishness: All these evil things come from within, and defile the man.Matthew 6:19-23 KJVLay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal: But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal: For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also. The light of the body is the eye: if therefore thine eye be single, thy whole body shall be full of light. But if thine eye be evil, thy whole body shall be full of darkness. If therefore the light that is in thee be darkness, how great is that darkness!