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Song by Halsey for Fifty Shades Darker Soundtrack
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Thank you for watching my cover of Halsey's "Not Afraid Anymore" from the Fifty Shades Darker soundtrack. This song grabbed me immediately and as I was singing it for the first time I started to relate to these lyrics, but perhaps on a different level that Halsey had intended. I realized this was so relevant to my life, and how I'd been feeling about my sexuality. I've only dated one women in my life, but always had feelings and attraction for both women and men. But it scares me, scares me to tell my close friends and family, and it the thought of announcing this to the world scares me too. Will people take me seriously, laugh at me, talk about me behind my back, tell me it's just phase, or even worse say they are going to pray for me. Well I can't hide forever. I figured if I'm going to stop hiding, I'll do it my way -- via my art.
I'm not afraid anymore.
Further thoughts on bisexuality:
A lot of people who grow up bisexual may not even realize they are such. It might take 20 or 30 years or more of their life to even figure it out. When you have feelings for both men and women its often easier to go for the heterosexual choice - the choice that won’t cause your family or friends to look down upon you, the choice you don’t have to explain to anyone, the choice that won’t get you stared at or gossiped about. Man + Woman - it’s the easy choice to make. One day though you’ll have a realization that you have never embraced the other side of your self. The side that longs to be with someone of the same sex. This side of yourself that you’re afraid to express, that you’ve never explored. When you finally go there you find a whole world of feelings and emotion that you’ve never experienced before. But still you are scared, scared to really commit to someone of the same sex, scared of what people will think of you, especially since you’ve been in heterosexual relationships your whole life. Everything is confusing, you don’t know what you want and what you don’t want. In love with him but longing for her. And you wonder, even if you do make the choice you’re so afraid of - will you ever be satisfied or will you always be longing for what you don’t have?
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